heh just came back from suntec marche after having dinner with my class. kinda like a class farewell cos this girl that was in the class is going to aussie to study. yea took my SAT today nothing much to say about it. was just wondering today that maybe i spend too much time worrying about things that i want like good results and well a good job and stuff like that. heh. seems to odd to think abt them now but they're gonna be a reality in the near future so what the heck. yea. that silly idiot of yichung is watching a movie with alec tan. dunno what those two clowns are up to. hope its something good tho. miss that doinky idiot. thought i could call him but oh well.

heh. s'funny sometimes when you dont realize it the people around you grow up mature or change. was just talking to derr today and realized that he grew up kinda from the sec2 kid that i was close to. heh. guess it takes sometime for you to work past your impressions to actually realize the change.:) not that its anything bad in him maturing (in fact it is a great improvement) but yea just that well my pt is that sometimes we're so caught up in the material things about going places and doing things you cease to notice whats truly important - friends family and well everyone that you care and love.

my sister's been having a hard time these days. apparently she and my mom and dad has this monumental argument last night that ended with her sobbing incoherently. really worried dunno whether its nerves or pms thats affecting her. something tells me theres more tho. sigh.

so this is my 2nd day of rest at home finally!! and it feels FANTASTIC heh. been thinking these days abt the wisdom of staying back in school for four outta the five weekdays, kinda ridiculous i know when i think abt it now in retrospect. but oh well...think that i'd better cut down on alot of things. was talking to yichung last night and well it kinda made lotsa sense when he told me that i needed to cut down on my commitments. sometimes he's so mature it makes me feel like a kid!! and im dating this guy!! haha. had my first home cooked meal since a long long time by my granny's maid. she's staying over at our place now cos my granny is in the hospital. its really kinda sad but she didnt want the respirator to be put into her -- my parents said that she lost her will to live. i hope i dont come to that pt in life ever. but now shes stable and well i really hope she gets well soon. its really surprising that when you're young you were so close to this person but now as you grow old things change and you hardly seem to know her except as a piece of your memory. its so odd how we forget people so easily when we get caught up in this everyday bustle of meeting datelines and doing stuff. kinda reminds me of what jac said on the 22nd abt how its scary the way people sorta just slip out of our lifes. i guess many have been doing such since last year. and well i realize that relationships regardless of love or friendship requires such effort to sustain and i feel really sorry abt my lack of efforts in this particular area for the past year or so. friendships can be revived i hope and well regarding love i hope i never come to day when i forget abt my love for all that i care about. for that would be really sad indeed.

hmmm welll...decided to start this blog and figure out whats so addictive abt this whole blogging thing. seems like everyone is doing it! heh. sick today so decided to rest at home after getting early leave from school. think ive been too busy these days really need to rest. heh hope i dont screw up SAT this sat. oh well...best not to think too much abt it. :) heh.